Category Archives: Academia

Articles that relate to or build off my academic study. This is both things I wrote about my university life and things written about the things I learned there since.

The Values of A Dollar – $50

We return to talk about the values expressed by who we, in Australia, present on our currency. I promise this entry didn’t take a lot of research. I’d normally joke that ‘I don’t recognise these bills’ because I’m a digital person and don’t make this kind of cash transaction very often. The previous denominations of currency are here (five, ten, twenty), if you’d like to see them.

Howard Florey

Chances are you know the name Florey, at least vaguely. You want a few moments…?

I can wait.

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What if I mention Sir Alexander Fleming?

Right. Howard Florey was one of the two people who shared the Nobel Prize with Fleming for Medicine. They discovered between them this stuff called penicillin, which helped spread antibiotics throughout European culture, and therefore, its economic and physical colonies. Florey was an Australian from Adelaide who conducted the first medical trials of penicillin – trials in which the patient died because Florey and his team failed to make quite enough of the drug.

Sir Ian Clunies Ross

Hobby horse time! In Australia, we have this thing called the CSIRO, the Commonwealth Science and Industrial Research Organisation. While a bit of a kickball politically, CSIRO has been a longstanding part of Australia’s push to scientific discovery and research, and has made crops, space-ship equipment, internet technologies and all sorts of neat things in that same sprawling general category of ‘what good can this thing be?’

CSIRO went on to create the system of wireless TCP/IP transmission that you now know as Wi-Fi, and the patent was used without credit for quite some time by businesses like McDonalds. We sued over that.

Anyway, CSIRO is cool, and Sir Ian Clunies Ross was at first a parasite researcher for its forebear, then eventually, its director. He was also a vet, which means that this was one of the first-printing notes to have two qualified scientists on it.

Edith Cowan

In the new printing, we have Edith Cowan, who was the first woman elected to Australian parliament. In uh, 1921? Which is not bad, considering that we didn’t have a Parliament until 1900 and all, but it’s still a wee bit embarassing since despite allowing women to vote, we needed to pass special laws to let them be elected.

Edith Cowan was a pro-education, pro-information legislator. In an ironic twist, in her first election, she beat the man who was responsible for passing the legislation that gave her the right – or rather, stopped withholding the right – for her to run for parliament. Once she was elected, she pushed hard for womens’ rights and for education.

The most interesting thing about Edith Cowan’s very interesting life didn’t happen until after she died. Two years after her death, a clock was erected in honour of her – and people fucking protested it. What the hell, people of Western Australia? What possible reason to you have to not want to commemorate the passing of a person who did a thing first?

…claimed that monuments were inherently masculine and therefore not an appropriate form of memorial to a woman…

Oh, fuck you.

Now, Edith Cowan has a monument that gets handed around every day, her image is printed out and shared and given and everyone in the country possibly sees her about once a week. And to everyone who wanted to push back against her can suck a duck.

David Unaipon


Ho boy.

So before we go any further on the specifics of Mr Unaipon, it’s worth noting that David Unaipon was an Aboriginal Australian. To be specific, he was a Warrawaldie Lakalinyeri of the Ngarrindjeri, which is a set of words I am not only unqualified to pronounce, but are older than everything that I consider ‘my culture.’ Specifically, the term ‘Ngarrindjeri’ is a term used for a coalition of Aboriginal people in the area we now call Adelaide, and means ‘The People Of This Land.’

sigh

I’m sorry. I’m really so sorry.

Mr Unaipon is credited broadly as ‘breaking stereotypes of Aboriginal people,’ which can be rephrased as ‘made it harder for White Australians to be quite so blatantly racist.’ David Unaipon was a smart man, and we know that because he filed for nineteen different patents of working inventions. We can also, if we didn’t know it, infer that he was an Aboriginal man, because he couldn’t afford to file those patents fully, given that he was poor, despite having a job as a bookkeeper. There are all these lovely quotes about how clever Mr Unaipon was, but they all use such patronising language to do it.

Setting aside what Mr Unaipon was talked about, and how he broke stereotypes, let’s just look at what he actually did. He was an avid reader, loved studying philosophy, science, music and literature. He invented a technique for, uh, and I’m just going to quote the patent here, ‘converted curvilineal motion into the straight line movement,’ which is used in modern shears. It’s used in almost all modern shears.

Mr Unaipon was credited for this patent once. He received no financial renumeration.

He also wrote poetry and books. He was a recognised expert on ballistics. He also wrote about the synthesis of Christendom and Aboriginal beliefs that he held. He gave lectures, pushed for Aboriginal rights, and when he was travelling around giving these lectures we didn’t let him stay in most of the nice hotels because good christ.

Jesus christ this is a depressing bill.

Basically, we have here a pair of people who at some points in our history, we said we didn’t want. Now they are icons of our nation, shared and recognised by the people of our country… but probably not as much, or as well as we should.

Produsage and Prosumption

These are terms I wind up using time to time because it appears that I’ve just wound up stuck in the landscape where those terms are relevant.

Produsage is the work of a wide, open format. Produsage is what happens when a media landscape that formerly had many barriers to entry flattens out. It’s when a media landscape goes from having a small number of elite outlets to suddenly having an enormous number of outlets where the people who consume the media also produce the media. Produsage is basically stuff like Youtube and webcomics. In wide produsage landscapes, the big problem becomes discovery, and the former elite organisations tend to reorient themselves as curators.

Prosumption is when consumers create their own media for their own consumption and other people’s, which is then shared or used to construct information for sharing. This is pretty much the Facebook or Twitter way. You control what tweets you see, you control how you tweet, and when you tweet, you’re as much tweeting because you want to be heard rather than that you want your tweet to be seen as a very important media piece. Oh, some folk do use twitter as a produsage platform, and sometimes that works, but the format is, overwhelmingly, designed where you, the user, can customise and control your own experience. Facebook is even worse for this – it wants you to curate your own space, then use that curation to predict what you want to see in the future as it best benefits them. Don’t feel bad about the mute button, because god damnit, that’s what it’s there for.

Two terms! They look silly and weird and like marketing speak. They’re not.

High School seXX Education

I like science. I really do! I like the things it’s made, I like it as a method for considering the world, I think objective observation has more use for my life than almost all other world views. And I should know, I’ve tried the alternatives. However, there’s something that’s kinda getting on my wick lately about other science fans.

See, in sixth grade, you learn that gravity is how earth holds onto you, and things fall at ten meters per second per second. You maybe get a bit of acceleration study in there, air resistance comes up. Then in seventh or eighth grade, they clarify that it’s actually nine point something. Then in tenth grade as you get into relativity, you learn that it’s about nine point something on a mountaintop and nine point something else at the bottom of the ocean. Then you graduate and you sit down with actual college-level physics and learn that well, really, gravity doesn’t seem to work when you get small and it’s more a sort of general impression everything is willing to go along with while you’ve got enough mass kicking around, and there’s too much of it and we don’t know why and we can use it to look behind black holes, and we kinda can’t prove black holes but we can definitely prove black holes and and and.

Now then.

In sixth grade, you learn that boys have an XY chromosome and girls have an XX chromosome.

And that, it seems, is where a lot of science fans just seem to stop. That drives me bananas. How is it possible for these knuckleheads to see the slowly expanding complexity of the studies of physics, of chemistry, of geography and politics, and assume that no, nope, biology’s stuck around that point, we’re done and don’t need to learn any more. Physics is generally hailed, after mathematics, as being the purest and simplest science, and we still teach stunted versions of it to people in high school to gear them up for the more complicated versions of it. Why then do you buttheads assert that your 13-year-old understanding of one of the most complex wings of science is simple and easily true?

Frigging fake science geek boys.


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The Values of a Dollar – $20

Following on from our discussion of the $10 and $5 notes in Australian currency, we move on to the $20. We’re going to do things a little backwards this time: We’re going to start with the newer note. It’ll probably become more obvious when we’re done why.

Mary Reibey


I feel a bit bad that we jump so quickly to this. Ms Reibey was a businesswoman. Like, that’s basically her big achievement, the reason she’s remembered, because she was a woman who became very successful in business. And I mean very successful in business – her estate was valued at £20,000 back when there weren’t many £s at all. If you walk along the dock areas of Sydney (that’s all of them) you’ll find a number of old copper plates on the buildings signifying when they were made – and a startling number of huge-ass warehouses for shipping were made in the 1820s.

See, Mary Reibey (and if I spell her name differently from time to time, don’t worry so did she) was in Australia because John Burrows was arrested for stealing a horse. That is to say, Mary Reibey’s crime-committing alter-ego got arrested and deported to Australia. Why did she steal a horse? Because she was bored. After being deported, she took up work as a nursemaid, then married an East India company worker – and when he travelled, she managed his estate. And his family – which wound up at seven or eight kids (give or take).

And then her husband died.

Most folk figured this would be when the Reibey business holdings in shipping would be distributed. Were they hell. She consolidated, and expanded, and expanded so aggressively that she founded a bank in her living room.

She retired in 1828 and spent her later years kicking around Newtown and giggling at the fictionalised novels people had written about her.

Reverend John Flynn


Remember how I mentioned airplanes were important to Australia? Well, turns out if you live out on the stockyards that are each individually larger than Delaware, you don’t have a lot of easily access to doctors. That was, at least, until the Flying Doctors service was started – and it was started by John Flynn.

Flynn was a really nice person, and I don’t mean that sarcastically; he wrote books on how to survive in bush environments and deal with medical problems or foraging for food and he made sure the book was distributed for free in the outback regions of Australia. But knowing that wasn’t enough, he moved on to found the Flying Doctors – which is exactly what it sounds like. Small planes that could reach a spread of territory the size of countries were loaded with a pilot, a doctor, and then flew around stockyards all across the great brown land of Australia, checking up on people.

The Flying Doctors became a really easily ridiculed TV series full of turgid melodrama, because we’re not very good at making TV, which is a goddamn shame because they’re really quite cool and badass and they help people. But oh well.

Sir Charles Kingsford Smith

The first $20 was an interesting one because the two figures were linked in a way other notes weren’t: They were both aviators. Now, look, Australia is a country that’s basically the size of America with almost every major population center literally thousands of kilometers away from one another, so flight was important to our early, pre-internet infrastructure.

What’d he do? Smithy, as he was known, was kind of an endurance flier. First and lesser, he crossed the nation in a plane, which when the plane was basically a shoebox with wings and a bike engine, was pretty badass. Then he flew to New Zealand, crossing the Tasman. That was also pretty amazing. And then, he crossed the freaking Pacific.

The PACIFIC OCEAN.

When planes were a new piece of tech, we had to find out what they could do. We had to prove their limits. And Smithy was a grown man who was willing to strap his butt to one of these little pieces of wood and canvas, and risk his life in literally the most remote parts of the planet.

Sir Charles Kingsford-Smith died in a flight between India and Singapore, pushing the limits of what planes could do.

Lawrence Hargraves


Now here’s the odd one.

Lawrence Hargraves is a slightly strange one to talk about for me because there’s the stories the history books offer, which are interesting and kind of distant. And then there’s the stories my family swap about the guy, stories we have heard from his great-niece.

Who is my grandmother.

So what I can tell you that seems to be publically agreed upon is that Lawrence Hargraves was a geek, one of those multi-disciplinary geeks back before science was quite so easily distributed. Thanks to living on a coastline hemmed in by a mountainside, he had the option of taking to very high altitudes to fly kites, which he did, and, with that thrill undertaken, he then decided to try flying kites with him in them.

Astoundingly, Lawrence Hargraves did not die by doing this.

Lawrence Hargraves was fascinated by the idea of human flight, but he was also scrupulous about recording details. Recognise this man existed before the photograph was widely distributed. If he wanted to take notes on the design of a device he had to break out protractors and measuring tape, and he did. So thorough were his notes that his experiments were easily reproduced, multiple times, by other scientists. We know this about his notes because he refused to seal them. He never applied for a patent, he never tried to close his work off to others and when he passed away he made sure the work was public because he believed ‘science belongs to science.’

I guess the thing that most sticks out to me is this quote:

“Workers must root out the idea [that] by keeping the results of their labors to themselves[,] a fortune will be assured to them. Patent fees are much wasted money. The flying machine of the future will not be born fully fledged and capable of a flight for 1000 miles or so. Like everything else it must be evolved gradually. The first difficulty is to get a thing that will fly at all. When this is made, a full description should be published as an aid to others. Excellence of design and workmanship will always defy competition.”

Hargraves described scientific discovery as work, and he advocated cooperation vs competition to overcome great, almost impossible challenges. In an environment of hypercompetitive markets defined by flying machines, these words from a man who is in no small part responsible for flying machines happening at all should be taken more seriously.

The Values of A Dollar – $10

Almost two years ago now, I started what I had at the time intended to be a set of posts about the people who appear on the Australian currency. That post, The Value of a Dollar established my theory that currency is the common art created by a government, and reflects values that government has. We’ve done the five dollar bill, so let’s talk about the ten dollar bill!

Francis Greenway

Francis Greenway was a convict sent to Australia for the crime of forgery. Take a moment to let that sink in – for a time, we had a man who was responsible for faking money, on our money. I’m sure he’d have been quite confused by the experience.

That’s not why we put him there, though. Francis Greenway was an architect, and was responsible for the architectural style of many key Sydney buildings. If you’ve ever been to Sydney, you’ll notice the older buildings have a very stocky style, with clear, brightly coloured white or red sandstone outside. That was Francis Greenway’s style. Essentially, Francis Greenway was responsible for the face of Sydney.

Henry Lawson


Henry Lawson was a short story writer, a poet, and a journalist when he had the time. Amongst his works was The Loaded Dog, a charming story we tell to children about a good-natured dog so stupid it eats dynamite and dies a horrific explosive death. I feel a bit bad here because Henry Lawson, while a crucial figure in Australian poetic history was overshadowed by…

Banjo Patterson

This guy, the new ten dollar bills’ chisel-featured Banjo Patterson. Patterson was… well, a journalist, a poet, and a short story author, and in his list of work we have things like The Man From Snowy River, or Clancy of the Overflow, or We’re All Australians Now, or, oh wait, here’s one you’d have heard of, Waltzing Matilda.

Banjo Patterson and Henry Lawson once had a slow-release rap battle, on the newspapers.

But poetry continues onto the obverse of the $10 with…

Dame Mary Gilmore

There’s just alway something ironic on a tenner in Australia, it seems. The first ten dollar bill had a forger, and this ten dollar bill has a socialist on it.

Dame Mary Gilmore was a journalist, poet, and political activist. She was also, as I say, a registered socialist – a firm believer in a structure where the primary purpose of the Australian nation was to benefit Australians – and therefore, she fought for and argued for ‘extreme’ positions in the 1920s like ‘Equal Pay For Women’ and ‘Government Subsidies For Mothers Who Want To Work’ or ‘Give Disabled/Disadvantaged People Money To Live.’

She had to separate from her political party for being ‘too extreme.’

Then, Mary Gilmore went on to write poetry and letters for the Tribune, which was the communist party’s newspaper. And then, because her poems kicked ass, she was made a Dame Commander of the Order of the British Empire by the crown – and she was the first person to be awarded that status thanks to literary work! Then she went on to write patriotic bolstering poetry, believing it important to give people strength to work together during the time of war, particularly No Foe Shall Gather our Harvest – the poem that is included on this note.

I like this. I like that our second most commonly-used currency used to have a forger who made a city pretty, and now it has a poet who opposed the idea of money.

Dame Mary Gilmore’s ideals have not yet been met, and we should not forget them.

Help Me With My Homework!

Hey, friends! For one of my classes this semester I’m doing a bit of a research project on what kind of barriers and problems people face using public-space media consumption (ie, the cinema) and how they feel about digital distribution networks (ie Netflix or Filthy Filthy Piracy).

For this I’d really hope to catch someone from a space that’s not immediately here, because the whole point of digital distribution is remoteness. I know a few of you don’t go to the movies for reasons, and I’d love to put together a little interview with you to talk about it.

Chances are it’ll probably be only about 4-5 minutes of actual interview talk that gets crunched down. If maybe four people sign up, that’ll be at most two minutes of audio interview with them.

Just something to think about!

Teach, Teach!

Recently my friend abadidea had an experience dealing with people talking down to her about her problems in tech. One thing I saw in the thread of conversation that led to this were well-intentioned people incorrectly identifying the kind of communication she was offering, thinking that she was asking them for help with a problem so simple they could help her, and not just expressing her feelings about a system excluding her.

I see this fairly often, especially in the unmediated public space that is Twitter. Imagine a schoolroom, if you will, full of students. It is a free moment; the teacher is at the front, but the students are free to chatter to one another.

“Hey,” says the teacher, “Does anyone know this?”

Suddenly, peoples’ hands shoot up.

“Oo oo oo!” calls out a student. “Oo, oo, I don’t know!”

What’s happening is someone is so eager to answer a question, to solve a problem, to be right, they want to approach a conversation as a problem. That’s understandable, lots of people like that. We like being right. We all like to be the one in the know, the one who solves a problem. Especially if it gets attention of someone cool. Someone famous. Someone impressive.

But chances are, that’s how you look. You don’t look cool or interesting.

You look like a dumbass.

Other People’s College Experience

Past few days I’ve been thinking a bit about long-term projects and college education. I think I’ve envied college students who parleyed some college project into a job of some variety. People who started doing ‘a webcomic’ or ‘a thing’ that moved on to become their thing. I know, it’s never that easy but there’s some sort of corridor, some affect to what they’re doing.

I’m starting on my second year of my three year course and unless something shakes up remarkably I probably will end the course no better off than when I started beyond having had three years to sit down and write stuff, feel stressed and resentful, and watch my life change underneath me.

I wonder where I’ll be in two years’ time.

Mourning Tech

Here’s a link to the Storify I made a few days ago about how your spaces influence your interace with technology. I really gotta stop doing those things as chains of tweets. It’s not my fault! Tweets actually work consistently right now!

On Digital Diaspora

I’m doing a digital communication course this semester. I’m not really into it – for a host of reasons, like accessability. The subject of cyberliberterianism has come up, and the whole course runs through Reddit – which has been praised non-stop for all the wonderful good it does as a demotic system. I have to have a reddit account for this semester. I have to post on Reddit. It’s one of the rules.

It’s very hard to engage with these topics in a purely academic, removed fashion. If we were discussing topics like Ancient Greek history, or the potential ramifications of fusion power, those are abstractions, disconnected elements from the reality in which I live that can be discussed at arm’s length. When we talk about heavily interconnected online spaces, though, that’s part of my life. When we talk about the steady slow shifting of human life through the media of online spaces, that’s been the part of my childhood that isn’t awful.

There’s always going to be some feeling about it. It’s inevitable. This week, Liquid Labour isn’t just a hypothetical element of a future cyber environment, it’s part of my life. It’s one of the ways I’ve paid my bills. It’s been part of how I’ve gotten jobs, it’s been part of why my jobs have disappeared. I firmly believe these things influence everyone, I’m just in a position where the influence they’ve had on me has been clear and direct. I have, as a human keenly aware of my educational shortcomings, deliberately worked to maintain and cultivate a connection to extelligence: when I don’t know something, I look it up, or I ask someone who does. These past few months, I’ve been cut off from my extelligence, with the internet completely absent.

The strangest effect this has had on me has not been the classic internet addict, where I feel tired or sad or listless, but rather one of intense frustration. Someone mentions a thing near me, and my reaction – I wonder what that means – is stymied. Suddenly, the boundaries of my intellect are limited at the edges of myself. Years of this extelligential exploration has made that boundary pretty wide but I know when I’m ignorant. I know where it’s missing spots.

I used to fly, but now I walk, and it is crushing to feel that weight on me again.

Then I hear people talking about bad ideas in bad spaces, right next to me, and I am told I am not allowed to answer them.

Do You Dislike Your Voice?

This is a genuine call for people who suffer some form of voice dysphoria or distress at their own voice who exist in online spaces.

One of my assignments for my Journalism class is to:

Compile a brief audio report (60 to 120 seconds) that illustrates at least ONE of the six primary emotions [Anger, Disgust, Fear, Happiness, Sadness, Surprise.]. The report must contain excerpts from an interview which canvasses that emotion and ambient/atmospheric sound recorded by you to illustrate /reflect the emotion, or to enhance narrative impact.

My classmates have all spoken about the people around them, the people they consider to typical, who have their own interesting stories, but who crucially, are all capable of using their own voices in ways that they accept as expressing their identity.

There are people I know, people I care about, who can’t. Speaking aloud, using their voices, that audio that my teachers hold so high as expressing emotion, is hard, painful, and sometimes deeply emotionally distressing. I’d like to make my piece about putting those peoples’ words in this report. I want to share the voices of those who cannot speak easily.

The theme of this piece is voiceless people finding a voice online. I’ve heard from numerous people I care about that dysphoria and communication issues are both eased through online text communication. The emotion I most want to share is happiness.

What I want to do is take text thoughts and expression from you, and people like you, about the happiness, the joy you can experience when you’re able to communicate clearly and distinctly online, without being prejudged or misgendered. Taking those texts, I would compose them together using a digital voice synthesiser program (there are tons of these). Then, I’d add ambient sound, and the voices of other people over key words (probably the voices of classmates) to demonstrate that I can layer sound/manage timing.

Do you think you’d like to contribute some words to this? Please let me know!

Uni Students Under Pressure

There’s this strange phenomenon amongst the people I hang around, where everyone knows we can do what we want to do better if we’re more disciplined, more structured, if we do things differently, and then we steadfastly refuse to do them that way. I say we, but really this seems to be a problem from outside of me. I’m not sure what will improve my work, right now, because the one thing I seem to be good at is hitting my goals. I wanted to write a book last year, and I wrote two. I wanted to do well in my uni work, and I did. Last year, I lost two pets and a grandma, and had five people in my family come down with cancer and I still came out of it okay. Sure, I show the cracks, but those cracks are in me – they aren’t in my work.

With a new Uni Semester stretching out ahead of me, and with a few folk I know going into their new semesters, here’s what I’m going to recommend; get the syllabus, get a calendar, and look at when the assessments are going to happen. You know your crunch time ahead of time. You know when things are going to kick you in the ass, because they’ve told us when they’ll do it. You don’t have to do your essay today, but if you leave it until the last minute, and I have to hear you complaining about it, I’m going to have a very hard time not yelling at you.

We know our assessments ahead of time. We know our teachers. We know what will be expected of us. They put this information in front of us now – so use it.

(Irony points: I haven’t done this yet, because I only just reconnected to the internet at all.)

Be My Study Buddy Bonus: English Essay!

Oh yeah, we’re heating up here at the Press.EXE blog system. I’m posting my actual English homework. You may think it’s boring but crucially, I earned a distinction with this essay so I’m pretty chuffed with it. Strangely, this essay we were not told to do any research, but I was praised for my ‘involving outside sources.’ Go figure.

Really, I just like The Raven a lot. It’s a poem I greatly appreciate and when I see its stanza creeping upon a page I must tamp down the urge to chant it, in ever-rising tones, to its wonderful, creeping pace.

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Be My Study Buddy: BCM110

It’s over – I’m done with the exam and through so it doesn’t matter at all what I do or don’t remember of it. It was a subject about mediated public spheres and Foucault and the Panopticon and Bentham, where independent research didn’t have to happen and I was at one point graded on group work.

One thing that stuck in my head in the short answers was Is Miley Cyrus Relevant?

Yes, she is. She’s relevant as a symptom, and as a symbol. First, she’s something that has happened before, and will almost certainly happen again and again, as a postcorporate entity lashing out in attempts to claim maturity. She’s also a shorthand symbol, wrought thick with connotations and dripping with semiotic self-righteousness.

Be My Study Buddy: MGMT102, Hate And Rage Edition

I hate this fucking course. I don’t know when I started to hate this course, but I really do. This isn’t typical Student bullshit of ‘this is hard, I hate this course,’ this is a genuine sick-in-the-gut, wrinkled-nose, disdain-and-rage sense of something being very wrong in this course. It might be the way the course is designed unethically. It could maybe be the way the course relies on pedagogically useless structures like multiple choice tests and grammar checks. I think the way I was charged for extra marks is a big part of it. I also found it frustrating to watch a lecturer heavily rely on references to Game of Thrones as a way to connect with her audience, which is a great sign for someone who’s going to tell you about communication.

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Do You Wanna Be My Study Buddy?

Real pretty picture of Nuriko, from Fushigi Yuugi!Four hours ago, I submitted my final essay for my BCM112 class. I’m not crazy about the essay overall, but I think it was decent enough. I’m mainly just happy that it’s passed and over with, because then it’s just three exams, and I’m done for the semester. This is pretty startling!

Last year I did a ‘study buddy’ set of posts where I talked about the ideas in my coming exams. I’m wondering if I should do that again – think it’d be interesting?

Oh, and there’s no major point to using the picture! I just really like it and had it sitting in my \incoming\ while I worked. It’s Nuriko, from Fushigi Yuugi. I don’t actually like Fushigi Yuugi all that much, but I really love the way this artist draws Nuriko. He’s an adorable bishounen, a sort of wholesome crossdresser type character. He’s also an immense brat, which I find massively endearing for no good reason.

Buckling Down

I’m in week 10 of 13 at University, and it’s become Assessment Time. There’ll be a slight break – I get a week before two weeks of exams – but basically, I’m spending more time writing about things for university, working on essays and trying to stay atop of productivity that way. Thankfully I have time to work on it, but it does mean things I do on this blog – like talk about Melissa’s book – are lower priority. Don’t worry, I’ll still keep to it on the schedule for Game Pile and for One Stone, dear readers.

I can say readers now. I know there are two of you reading that.

Woo!

Quoth The Raven

I just got back one of my essays for this semester. It was my English 102 subject, where we were asked to take a small part of a greater work and analyse it, and show how it was relevant to the greater piece. I chose, of what we were given, The Raven, and the section I analysed was this:

Open here I flung the shutter, when, with many a flirt and flutter,
In there stepped a stately raven of the saintly days of yore;
Not the least obeisance made he; not an instant stopped or stayed he;
But, with mien of lord or lady, perched above my chamber door—
Perched upon a bust of Pallas just above my chamber door—
Perched, and sat, and nothing more.

Then this ebony bird beguiling my sad fancy into smiling,
By the grave and stern decorum of the countenance it wore,
“Though thy crest be shorn and shaven, thou,” I said, “art sure no craven,
Ghastly grim and ancient raven wandering from the Nightly shore—
Tell me what thy lordly name is on the Night’s Plutonian shore!”
Quoth the raven, “Nevermore.”

I did quite well on the essay, scoring an 83%, with the teacher lauding me for my involvement of other fields of information. I talked about how the section of the poem both increases and decreases the tempo, and uses its trochee structure and alliteration to make two pieces of almost identical meter and rhythm still feel palpably different, with one half more urgent, the other half more relaxed.

Thing is, my main source for knowing what a Trochee was at all, was this:

Is this scummy?

One of my classes requires me to buy a textbook. Okay, that’s fine. You can even buy the ebook.

You need the book to log into the website – each book comes with a unique code. If you buy it second hand, you can’t log into the website. That website gives you a test – a very, very basic test, it seems. If you pass the tests on the site, you can score 30% for your mark – but if you fail, you still get 15%.

If you don’t buy the book you don’t get that 15%. You get 0%.

Now, ignoring the value of the book, that feels very very suspicious.

Attention

A much smarter man than me would have constructed this with exhaustive research and extensive footnoting, and done all this as perhaps a sort of essay on the subject in philosophy class, instead of what I did, which was to do a bunch of reading thne set aside the topic for an easier one that complained about videogames. Instead you have me, running through a very surface-level skim of what Facebook and advertising should mean, to you, as a consumer of web content.

The great fear of the moral guardians as people grew up in the post-Reagan era was that we human beings, raised with television all around us, just like them, would wind up completely dominated by massive, obtrusive advertising. We’d live a branded life, we’d have no idea or way to handle the world outside of the advertisement before us. Slaves to the whims of corporate entities that sought to manipulate our gooey, impressionable brains. Open your wallets and hail the symbol, right? Essentially, the fear was that advertisement as part of our lives would remove our free will.

That’s the fear.

A little experiment for you, if you’d be so kind. Take a normal trip in your life, like a simple little journey to the store, or a walk to the park and back. Not only is that good exercise, but it puts you out in the physical space of your world, of your culture. This time, note the advertising around you. Count how many times you see a brand, how many times you see an advertisement. I did this on a trip to my university classes of a morning, and I counted around a hundred and thirty on a twenty minute bus trip. T-shirts, hats, banners on walls, papers taped to poles – and I’m not the sharpest-eyed guy. I know there were almost definitely ones I missed.

You are surrounded by advertising.

It does almost nothing.

What most people didn’t realise was that advertising is just like birdsong and tree leaf patterns. We are amazing at ignoring the world. We are breathtakingly good at the simple task of taking everything around us that is vying for our attention and telling about 99% of it to get stuffed. We’re so good at this that noticing more things is actually called Attention Deficit. People outside of advertising complain about ads being dominating, ads overtaking the world, ads with enormous influence…

… and people inside advertising are crapping their pants trying to work out how to make it work. Advertisers are struggling in this modern age to successfully tap their own industry, which is an outgrowth of marketing. Ignoring the foulness of what marketing is, advertising is a pretty random affair. Sometimes, something will go viral and receive a huge amount of attention; that doesn’t, however, necessarily translate to a huge amount of increased revenue.

“There’s no such thing as bad publicity,” it’s said. It’s said, primarily, by people justifying doing something stupid, reckless, and thoughtless, which will generate bad publicity. That’s not true. It’s not true that there’s ‘no such thing.’ That sentence almost always really means ‘What we’re doing is not reprehensible to a sufficiently large portion of the population.’ There are some areas where there’s a pendulum swing, but for the most part, there is, in fact, bad publicity. Want an example? The KKK had its back broken by being made fun of by schoolchildren playing Superman.

In essence, advertisers, right now, can generate tons of advertising, but they can’t generate tons of impact. They can gather tons of data, they can target you with advertising, they can give you more specific ads than ever before, and you just ignore it.

This is, to the mind of the advertiser, something of a problem.

Bear this all in mind. We’re going to come back to this soon.

Break Week!

Coming up is a blank week in the middle of the uni semester. I have to get some work done – bit by bit! – on my projects, but this is looking at being a full week in which I have no obligation to leave the house, and can simply sit down, and focus. I somehow dread that this period will be dedicated to fucking around.

Starting the week off – well, a Sunday is a start – I’m home now after this morning being pulled in as a raider in my first ever ‘proper’ raid experience. I came along with the Lazy Peons of Khadgar, which is, apparently, a thing to help some alts gear up through the Throne of Thunder raid. I died once, the other tank died once, and apparently, the ability to endure the guild leader’s ‘shit’ was a skill enough. Then, ten minutes after the boss dropped, bam, we were off to Sydney to draft Theros cards with Mournglash and co. I lost more than I won, but I had fun, and people enjoyed themselves.

Now, I have a little time left before the end of the day to do a little bit of work on one thing, or another thing. Let’s see what I do.

God I Hate Poetry

I just fucking hate writing poetry. I hate sitting around listening to artless, inelegant, unpaced poems, typically oriented in talk about relationships, in class. If fiction is where the wilds of human possibility expand out into a never-ending horizon of anywhere, poetry is where the amateur sit to wallow in things that have already happened a thousand fucking times. I don’t like poetry (that’s a lie) and I don’t like writing poetry and I am sullen that poetry was my first major assignment for Creative Writing, the subject I enjoy the most.

My resentment of the form shows, it seems, when I attempt it. My initial mark for my poetry assignment was quite low – barely in what the teacher considered pass territory. It was so awkward and bad that he actually brought a photocopy to the class, to show us all as an exercise – seriously! – in bad work, as what I can only assume he imagined as a serious workshopping effort to ‘fix’ this bad work. We first heard another students’ poem, which he really liked, with its ‘weird energy’ and how he was fond of its comparisons with food and relationships, using imagery that was new to him and idioms he didn’t recognise. Then we moved on to a poem about a crappy morning with a coffee punchline, which he felt had an interesting introduced element in the middle of an Anger Management Therapist, which he loved and even took the opportunity to break out this truly gut-wrenching poem of his own about spousal abuse (which left me feeling awkward).

Then after two poems he liked, the intention was to take my poem out to the woodshed.

When I read it aloud, he looked very confused, and changed his mind. Took the paper, scribbled out my low mark and replaced it with a much higher one. Apparently, he thought, it read better aloud than it read on the paper.

I don’t know what exactly to say about that, but here it is, below the jump.

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CACW Classwork – Dialogue!

Him:Is this her head?
Her:Oh, no, you’re looking for a blonde.
Him:I thought this was pretty blonde.
Her:That’s strawberry blonde. A variant of red.
Him:You know, that’s something I never quite worked out – why is the hair built in at this point?
Her:::no answer::
Him:I said, why is the hair built in? I mean, it’s all modular, why do you build in the hair before the head’s attached?
Her:::no answer::
Him:Since I mean, I can wear a wig, and you can wear a wig, why can’t she wear a wig?
Her:::no answer::
Him:I’m sorry, am I somehow boring you?
Her:I find it’s rarely worth broadcasting a response when I’m taking a shit.
Him:You find the alternative explanation interesting?
Her:Radio silence bothers you because you’re mad, not because you want to hear me pooping.
Him:Mad?
Her:Yes, mad. You’re madder than a box of frogs. If you think of madness as any particular variant on psychological normalcy, you are quite frankly batshit crazy. You hate your parents for dying on you, you hate your sister for not agreeing with you, you hate your foster parents for not hating you and you hate yourself for not dying heroically sometime when you thought enough of yourself to think yourself pretty, and now, you are bickering with me about whether or not you want to hear me flush. You are, as I’m sure you’re aware, quite, quite mad.
Him:That’s pretty fucking bold from a woman I’ve only known for a month.
Her:I knew you ten seconds after you opened your mouth. You’re pressed from a mould.
Him:… I have pretty much every right in the world to be direly offended at this point, you know.
Her:I do know, but you won’t be, because I’m basically the closest thing you have in the world to a friend.
Him:I’m going to ignore that.
Her:As demonstrated aptly by your bringing your dismissal to my attention. Found it yet?
Him:The head?
Her:Were you looking for something else?
Him:I don’t know, is my pursuit of the head somehow a demonstration of my inner psyche’s yawning need for approval?
Her:Do you think you need approval more than you need money?
Him:Point.
Her:Point and match.
Him:It’s still strange. I recognise the value of the wholeness of appearance, I just don’t know why, you know, we haven’t come to a better system.
Her:You think like a guardsman, like an engineer. I’m an artist – and that’s why you’ve walked past my girls and boys all across the lower quarter and not once thought you weren’t looking at skin.
Him:You can say that, but I know. I always know.
Her:Such boldness would be better justified if I didn’t know why you’d been fired.
Him:Dismissed.
Her:Fired.
Him:… I think I’ve found it.

Back to Uni stuff…

My creative writing work is done for the first assessment (due end of Week Six). It’s week five now, so I’m good on that one. I have a project to finish by Sunday night, but it’s mostly done, thanks to Conscience Crab (thanks, Conscience Crab). I have to do some work for BCM, which is mostly reading and putting together stuff for my group presentation.

I fear at times that I’m too first-year. That my work is too basic but the questions I’m being asked seem so incredibly stupid. In class, I was asked ‘why is this this way?’ and so I did some digging and research. I wound up with an interesting take on things because I’d looked into the demographics of the era and the changing cultural environment. I was told the answer was much simpler than I expected, because I was expected to read the Reader and use that for my answers. Which is okay, but I felt a bit embarassed.

I still need to pick my Philosophy essay question. I’m leaning towards the discussion of the ethics of videogames using deliberately addictive techniques. It bothers me because the lecture and discussion so far has been totally anti-videogame… and counterfactual in places. I think there is something interesting to be said about the ethics of videogames becoming more skinner-boxy, but I don’t think you find that problem in the fucking Splinter Cell games.

Oh well.

Also, because achievements track locally I’m playing Hate Plus AGAIN again again again again. Again. On the other hand, I’m debating what game to play next. I’m between X-Com, Mass Effect and Sleeping Dogs. The trick is finding which will leave a friend least disappointed in the time it’s taking.

Minor Vent

Oh sweetest of all things like Christ, I’m so fucking SICK and TIRED of the POETRY in my creative writing class. Oh, the narratives are bad, don’t get me wrong, but we’re all bad and we’re all meant to be bad but so many of these poems are just smears of words across a page, these vague, simplistic, banal uses of imagery, with no reference to rhythm or structure, no use of rhyme (of ANY sort) and good god it makes me sad.

It makes me sad because I am sitting in a room full of beginners and the teacher wants the tutorial time to be about one another looking at our work, and the other students only want to say nice things about one another. They defend themselves with phrases like “It’s a metaphor and I don’t want to explain it.”

Maybe I Just Hate Caravans

Today in Creative Writing class, we were asked to write the setting of a stage play; basically, the introduction to a narrative. The suggestion was to take ‘a novel you’re writing,’ and use a setting from that. That bothered me, because I don’t have ‘a novel I’m writing’ I’m just trying to learn about the best ways to go about writing a novel.

This is what I made:

Realism Approach

One room, a second-hand Caravan with mostly fixed fittings, sitting on its side. Water damage visible around the floor and one wall. Fixed-fitting table juts on the wall, mattresses piled on the floor. Dusty ladder sits against the ‘wall’, which is the former floor, paint marks on it, for egress. Door opens outwards. Cans, closed, piled up in one corner in the alcoves that used to be the bunk beds, turned to a pantry. Radio, crackling with older music and occasional snatches of conspiracy-theory laden speech. The light fittings buzz. Candles sit on the flat surfaces, away from windows.

The door opens, light sheets in.

A Looser Realism approach

Caravan on its side, ladder to exit. Battered. Second hand. Hot. A enters from door.

Bare minimum

Prone abandoned caravan shelter. Door opens.

The Limits Of My Imagination

Every time my Creative Writing tutor speaks up to a writer, he mentions biographical information. When I read Forgotten Son to the class, he spoke to me, asserting, assuming, that I was a middle son; that I had been circumcised; that I was speaking from personal experience and context as a writer. That the storytelling I presented was me simply taking events from my life, and changing the settings, adjusting the colours, and asking people to read it. It’s not a terrible idea – but he loves this notion, the notion of the great autobiographical context, the notion that all storytelling flows from an individual’s experience.

Another student wrote an autobiographical piece – definitively so. It was about how he had been in a snit at his father the day he died. It was a decently written piece, I had opinions on it, and I wouldn’t mind taking the guy aside and talking to him about it. But in the piece, the one thing I didn’t care about was the time he mentioned Bowling Club. The tutor talked about Australian language, about how we use the word ‘Bowlo’ rather than Bowling club. He turned to the student, and asked him, with assumption in his voice: Why didn’t you use the word Bowlo?

In the truest and most sincere autobiographical piece, the tutor wanted to ask why he used the word that was actually used in the actual event.

I find myself afraid that the tutor is going to care about how he imagines we write rather than how we write. It is going to be very awkward as we proceed, as bad writing and poorly constructed narrative is graded more on its Australian-ness than on the quality of the story it tries to tell. Dont’ get me wrong, I’m quite bad for it too – I listened to the fantasy narrative as introduced by another student imagining what she projected of herself into the character on the page. I just don’t have control over the grades.

My storytelling should not be limited to my experience. Because if it is, all I will ever write is Yet More Bullshit about a white man who has had sex with women and achieved very little in his life.

A Sideline

One of the things I need to do for my class this semester is maintain a blog that indicates I’m paying attention to international media. Kind of easy, because I am, and that’s fun and fine, but for now it means that some of the political stuff is going to be mostly situated here.

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