While writing these blog posts I have had reason to go over two years of notes. It’s been an embarrassing little trip, finding these old scrabbles of ideas that didn’t go anywhere, arcs of RP plots, plans of stories tailored to individuals that fizzled out and ended because they wanted to go elsewhere, or just didn’t want, or we fell out of contact, or whatever. There’s scribbles of stories that may one day happen, but probably won’t.
There’s also a lot of venting.
If you ever find yourself in possession of one of my notebooks, I really am sorry. There’s a lot of hate and anger in those and I don’t know why. I don’t know why it hasn’t gone away.
I’ve found a shopping list for City of Heroes. I’ve found the Alphabet Game I played with characters’ names. I found plans for designing my Magic: The Gathering decks and even a little bit of minecraft circuitry mapping. I also found this:
If we’re friends, chances are, even if you’re not around, you’re on my mind. Don’t ever forget that you matter.